Charles Bukowski tangents

I finished reading Ham on Rye. It was pretty good but it didn't affect me like back when I read Love is a Dog from Hell in my late teens. Mr. Bukowski inspired me then like he did with the drunks, the unemployed dishwashers and college dropouts. I thought if he could do it then I could do it. I was inspired by others and other things but Mr. BUkowski has his place.
I saw a documentary about him that my brother had. It was great. But one thing that struck a nerve with it me was what was written on his gravestone. It read "Don't try." What if he really believed that. He would have been nothing not a writer not inspirational. He definitly wouldn't have written the many fine books. How could he say that as his final legacy?
I think about these time. The economical term oit we are in. America is indebt. People are laid off etc. Don't try? He grew up during the great depression and that is what he came away with.
I will still probably read more of his books.
I think about my writing. My book isn't selling because I haven't got a royalty check in awhile and I'm awaiting a rejection for my poetry chapbook. All this and I still can't quit it.
I think about the people who are laid off like my upstairs neighbor. It seems like on the news there always stories with people in this position. are you as tired of it as I am?
Maybe if I never picked of a Charles Bukowski book I would be in a position to help. Instead of an unemployed college dropout (I get disability from the military so don't worry about me)
Now I volunteer at a school full of children who have so many roadblocks intheir lives. They don't have alot of the opertunities I had growing up being the son of a principal. I wish they would rise above. Now it is kind of damned if you do damned if you don't. Either be in the unemplyment line or go to college and have a huge debt hanging over you head. What can anybody sayto that ?