D.C. on a whim (ramblings)

Went to D.C. with my dad saw alot of stuff. I am still inspired by the art in the art musicisum. We saw a da Vinci which was the only one in the western hemisphere. I am still now so inspired so I thought of I could do.
The only thing I can do with art is stick figures like the once you see on street sighns. I also have a military influence which is something I can't ignore.
My miliarty experence can be summed up in failure although I did get an honorable discharge.
I was thinking using incomplete stick figures like the once you see on street sighns but making them incomlete maybe adding a m240 machine gun to a stick figure crossing the street without hands pr maybe arms.
I have a soldiers manuel I got in the army. Soldiers manuels were handed out at each duty station. I am inspired to look at it again to see if I can express it in a sketch pad.
I have a sketch pad but I am a affraid I might mess it up.
Anyway I do have a self published book out. I think if I write another book I would have to have a co-writer. This goes for more visisble art as well. I need someone to help me with my ispiration from the art musemum I saw in D.C.
If you are interested go to my profile and email me.
like I said before this is just ramblings.

1/3/11 journal entry

Bought the newest Weezer album, and it kind of hurt. Reminds me back when I was reckless- a candle burning at both ends. How did I come out of that alive? How did I come out of that without a criminal record? 30 mature and stable as much as as person suffering from a mental illness can be.
Was I crazy then?
Now finacially stable and happy. Loving the taste of alone on my chapped lips. Enjoying the taste of lonliness with no drama at my finger tips with dirty finger nails.
Don't feel lost at home in the heat, hoody on, with comfortable shoes, leather furniture-brand new, with stainless stell appliances paying extra for the perks like the fireplace I don't use.
Why would I want to share this with anyone, when I hadn't had it for very long?