freewrite

No child's voice was heard the day after
christmas lights were on
but no one really noticed
all the wine had been opened
football was always on the tv
if it wasn't for the chills of the wind
we would define ourselves as beach bums
one thing surfaced like waves on the beach
we were together
what I learned from the separation
was so simple
sometimes you just can't take family for granted
sometimes you are alone with your conflicting emotions
the one's close to you are farther then a handshake away
there is no finish line or award for just dealing with it
the middle isn't like a piece of turkey huddled in sandwich
but a ship going down surrounded by a deep dark ocean
freezing the bones of the crew
when we survive it is best not to look back

 

GUns and the Nra

Do you really think that our founding father's had assualt weapons in mind when they wrote the second amendment?
The best way for me to understand the other side is to say what if the governemnt said I can't buy R and B records anymore. I still can't understand why someone would want assualt weapons her one of those clips that hold so many bullets.
If the NRA wants to save face they should donate to such organizations as Nami or just to mental health in general. As far as I can tell they're not doing much with their so called influence on our society.
Maybe we should have psychological evauations for potential gun owners. Maybe even raise the IQ for owning a gun.
When guns are in a house with children, they should be locked up. I haven't heard any of that talk on the news.

12/8/12

THe first thing you need is the will to wake up, when the sky is crashing down or when everything is as predictable as routine.
Maybe there are snapshots in your brain of young bloods experiencing things for the first time. Maybe the last thing you want them to do is follow your path. MOst of all you want them to stay as young as they can. Other love one's enter your brain and you wish they were closer.
Your steps fall heavy for a cup of coffee. Your steps fall heavy because you don't know what Saturday will hold. You steps fall heavy because you just finished a race.
YOu step outside and it is about 70 degrees in December. But the sun doesn't shine as long this time of year. The clouds have rolled away from the rain the night before. Thank God the sun shines today.

Friday

THe F-150 growns into the night
it accelerates and gasps its last
the sound drowns in the saturated asphalt
I've never seen them before
paranoia can act like smoker shakes
going up my spine
Why were they infront of my car?
Why are they here?
serenity drizzles rain on tranquility
in darkness
except for street lamps
and the lights in my apartment
reflecting on the sliding glass door
NOw I feel I am the only one here
the cars are lifless in the parking lot

The most important, sermon

I know the only religious influence that seem to make the news are the extremeist. I listened to one of my sermons today, and the pastor said the Jewish law is impossible to follow, and when Jesus was asked what is the single most important thing. It is to love God- not protest at a soldiers funeral because you think GOd hates the gays. Also you often see women treated like dogs. It seems like some religious white men think they are only good for breeding.
Also said in the sermon, is to understand that GOd loves us unconditionally but we are train wrecks. Train wrecks that summs up my twenties. I was so hard of hearing that I had to lose it all, and I do mean all to turn back and follow Jesus. This has made me humbled.
Some of you are saying that organized religion causes most of the wars. Idiots start wars. I am tired of hearing that it is GOds will.
My pastor said be fanatical with your love for God. Since we are trainwrecks, I can't help but feel there is speculation with some of us. Fanatical, I think that is noncomformity. I think that is go against the herd. Nowadays there are several ways to conform. Try and be an individual that can stand alone and love the unlovable.
Some of you probably saying he contradcited himself by bringing up extremists and then using the word fanatical. There should be line drawn. Don't hurt anybody else.