Maybe I did what I was suppose to do

A Cloudy Rainy Day

There was an ambulance without the sirens on outside her apartment. I was on my balcony watching it go on. The two EMS guys came out with their stretcher. However, there was no one on it. They sat in their ambulance talking on the phone and rubbing their eyes. I didn’t hear the conversation. I didn’t know why they were called or what was wrong.
She was in a wheelchair, however she could still manage to drive herself places. I figured if you can drive you can write. Everyone has a story to tell that was part of my master plan.
I myself was disabled. I started shaking when I thought of the plan. I didn’t know if it was because of the coffee and cigarettes or because of my meds.
Since I didn’t like driving for the most part, I usually stayed in a couple blocks radius from my apartment. There was a Kroger across the street, a costco a block away, and a Gold’s Gym three blocks away. Near Gold’s there was a CVS.
I figured CVS would have school supplies like notebooks and pens. I drove there when the rain had stopped. I hate driving in the rain. I spent money there that would normally be spent on cigarettes (I started back up again). I bought a notebook and two pens.
I took a poetry class at the community college. I figured I could teach her how to write poetry, she could use the notebook as a journal, or maybe she can draw in it. I made sure that the notebook was wide ruled. The only real advice I could give to anyone was to write rather it be fiction or non fiction.
I drove back for some reason still shaking. I arrive back at my apartment and went inside. I smoked because I was nervous. I didn’t know what to expect. I got my scissors and pierced a hole in the package of pens so she could open them easily. Sometimes those things are hard to open.
Finally I walked to her ramp and knocked on her door. There was a security pad with numbers on it beside her door. There was also another ramp that was smaller so she should leave her apartment. NO one answered my first knock so I knocked again. There was still no answer. I hoped everything was alright as I placed the gift on the ramp. I made sure the ramp wasn’t wet from the rain when I placed it on it. I also thought it might be hard for her to reach. I didn’t know what else to do. Should I have written a note? My handwriting is terrible. I then walked away back to my apartment.

Open letter to the protesters

Mankind need a cause
to create swagger
or a spring in their step
they may be driven to the drink
to escape a mondame routine
or they drink to celebrate a job well done
so often rejection gets in the way, too many, "No's"
This kills motivation
don't let your bright eyes close shut
don't close the minds of your children
We once felt we could do anything
Some have played by the rules
only to have a mountain of debt making the American dream
seem like a nightmare
You might be enraged
I urge you to remain passive
Remember to vote
even though it seems like Our representation
have their own agenda
My prayers are with you

Consequences

There comes a time in everyone's life where they have to step up their game. You can't wait or lie down to wait for life to happen. For many of you it was going to college, maybe it was going for a promotion. For me it was joining the army. I wasn't cutting it on my own. 9-11 was fresh in people's minds and I was a college dropout.
Why am I bringing this up? There are consequences to our action and our decisions. We have to keep on moving.
When we reach Life's plateau maybe we ask ourselves what do we have to show for it. Some of you will graduate college with a degree that isn't to apealing to the job market. Some of you may notice other people moving up all around you and you can't figure out why you are not. Some of us have to start over.
If I would have stayed in school I could have been more then I am now. Is it time for me to grow up some more? I feel if I had the degree in journalism I could have a little bit more income or be able to be more satisfied.
That was a choice possibly laziness or maybe I was trying to find an easy fix.
The world didn't necassarily put me here. Life is hard but I should have been more proactive. Feeling sorry for yourself is a waste. I often think of the things I do have. The army was a bad experience but it was a good decision.
Maybe our country has to do some more growing up. This maybe in the form of compromise.
In my last post I mention Democrats and republicans our views may split us apart and then there is our social classes. I personally want more from my representative and my president. I also understand that the choices I have made put me here.
Maybe we should all reevaluate our decsions. Maybe I should take online classes because being in a classroom can be intemidating for me. What can you do to better your situation? Or all you making that decision.
We should probably stop blaming others and do what we can for ourselves.
Finally, hold your head up it could be worse. If you are reading this chances are you have a computer. If you have computer maybe you have a roof over your head. If you have a roof over your head maybe you have food in the fridge or cabinet. Maybe you even have a car. Then you might have the option of going to the grocery store to buy food. Hopefully you have some extra money to go out with your freinds. Maybe you are loved by family or a signifigant other. Americans are resiliant look at all we've been through so far.

Occupy Richmond-maybe another French Revolution_Interestine times

Here on the westend there are republicans. There are people who believe in limited government. There are people here who would vote for voodoo economics all over again. Tonight a waiteress said Fox News is my shit. Her reasoning drug test.She said the governemnt shouln't regulate that.
I have been doing some reading on the French revolution. Gran it france was a monarchy before it was overthrown but still in france 95% of the people were not being represented. Occupy Richond wants to give 99% of the population of voice.
These are indeed exciting times. During the French Revoltuion peasants or commoners started "the great fear" that is destroying anything that was of the old regime France.
There were about 700 arrest in New York when people protest against wall street. My dad said they are against greed. I don't think he is in to it.
The rich should be taxed the poor however are taxed more.
I question everything and if at anytime I am incorrect in this blog feel free to call me out on my shit.
What actaully do we want? What actually will unify us? WIth this kind of protest I can't say I am into the mob mantality.
There so many news stations with conflicting views. I was raised democrat. I am told by facebook democrats want to take away my veterans benefits. On another hand republicans do not want to put the money into public schools which is the future of our nation. What source should I trust? Does this country have to be as separated has it is?
African Americans or what I can tell by Black comdedians is unempolyment began being an issue when whites or the private sector were laid off.
Where are these lines being drawn for the next revolution? College students are doing what they are suppose to do by graduating but what do they have to show for it a mountain of debt and unemployment.
Occupy Richmond is planning a silent protest on Friday.The police won't talk about their plan. What if the tea party shows up? Who will push harder?
Being an indivdual that lives off the government now I look back at my time at VCU. There were anarchist (I don't know if they went to school) and communist. Extremes on both sides won't get the job done. Would love to hear your feedback...